All her life she had been hiding inside herself and nobody knew.
All her life she had wondered why the people around her that said they were her family, seemed foreign to her sometimes. People who were meant to be her teachers didn't understand her.
She felt fear and lack most of the time, unless she escaped. She escaped best to the grass and the clouds and the trees and the sky. She escaped to the whisper, the silence, the roar, the bounty and the inexorability of nature. Nature knew her best. Nature was her home.
In nature, she wished for her wings to grow back and to lift her away from this place.
Sometimes she even wished for someone to steal her.
Then she grew up. She discovered that people had been stealing her all her life, and she had been letting them. She had no boundaries, and gave herself away, trying to please people and make the pain stop. It didn't stop.
In her confusion she had thrown away good things and kept others that hurt. She tried to make amends. She did things for people, she gave away things, she gave away money. She waited and waited for a friend, or for a partner to see that she was real and worthy.
It didn't happen. People she loved left her, and took things. And took her for granted. Her story was awful.
Until the day she started to say No.
No built a small boundary inside her first. No protected her from further pleasing of the others.
No helped her to please herself.
All this time she thought life was about giving and she realised she had starved herself by giving in the wrong order. She said No again and again and took her time doing things for herself.
The others were angry. They accused her of being selfish.
And she was. She withdrew the energy streams she had been sending out everywhere and she sent them into her heart where they belonged.
The others raged. She had pulled out their power lines, their plugs and hooks. It hurt and almost drained her of courage.
She wavered a little, feeling bad for them, but listened to her heart and realised if she did not serve herself, they were going to suck her dry of all her goodness and she needed to survive. She no longer felt responsible for their happiness. Her shoulders grew lighter. Her heart grew full.
She was self-ish. There was no one left. But she was free.
It was incredibly liberating.
And then the flow started. At first it was a trickle, little by little the people came, seeing she valued her Self, they acknowledged and responded to her value. She invested in herself by blessing the ones who were present before and who taught her to value herself, and the ones who understood came back.
She kept moving forward into an ever increasing stream of new people, new adventures and wonder.
The flow of people coming to her became a deluge and she realised she was not only worthy - she had a purpose and the purpose was to free the others.
She discovered that all the self doubting in the world was in fact, real selfishness because it caused light to be dim, and only held others back from their healing and growth.
She finally understood, she was birthed in love. No matter where she sprang from, how life shaped her, she chose to be here. She was not what had been 'done to her', she was an immaculate idea, divine in her inception, and so she shed the tight constraining bonds of the chrysalis that was her story, grew her wings and claimed the parts of herself that frightened others. She was creative, resourceful, wild, magical and amazing, no longer held back by thoughts of not-good-enough.
She had come to the planet to be a guide, a way shower, finally she knew she was a lighthouse for others, to alert them, help them to safety and to hold a space for them to grow and blossom through their storms.
She accepted her mission and opening her arms as widely as they could go, she laughed and embraced it with all her heart, exultant in the recognition that her souls greatest journey was also her homecoming.
It wasn't meant to be a walk in the park. Lighthouses are made of strong stuff.
She stepped up. And stood. Claimed her ground as solid rock and shone.
And guide she did.
In many cases ONE Energy Healing session can release ALL your pain.
can cut the distance between You and Your Healing into minutes.
Pain, stiffness and tension are all energy blockages - even pain due to injuries - and energy healing clears this.
Why do I think energy healing is great?
These are results...
and... helping plants grow. (You should see the size of my jade plant leaves!)
So what else is possible? All these things have happened for my clients, their testimonials are here.
I was a sceptic who regularly took Panadol and other painkillers for a chronic sore back. I had phantom pains, a broken heart, felt depressed and had low self esteem. I recovered from a prolonged series of traumatic life events that brought both extreme pain and around 30 years of fear. I still am partly sceptic and that's why I love to see and hear results.
Every day, people are helped by this work.
It works over the phone, via Skype, anywhere in the world.
Some people are helped in ways they never dreamed possible.
Are you ready to believe that you can let go of pain?
I was in the hospital a few years ago visiting my grandfather, when I had wild heart palpitations. Standing in the lift alone I felt a surge and then a crazy heartbeat.
Asking internally what it was, I was shown the side of the lift melting into the room next door and I could 'see' a man on the table having resuscitation work done on him.
Relieved I wasn't actually sick - and knowing if someone else was - at least they were in the right place, I sort of 'released' the experience, went off to visit Poppa, and eventually went home.
I wandered through my week, working, getting tired, really tired, and putting it down to being a single mum of two boys, with a day job etc. And by the weekend, I was UTTERLY knackered. I was starting to believe I might have chronic fatigue syndrome.
We were out running errands and I was so tired I had to stop the car because I felt like I was going to fall asleep at the wheel.
I parked and said to the boys "I'm really sorry, but I am going to have to sleep for a few minutes.” They said they were ok with that, and I just surrendered to it and woke a little while later to find a friend parked on the other side of the road.
She was concerned about me, and also had a bit of a chuckle - calling me a Grandma. I drove home, and that was that.
But I didn't really feel like myself.
A few days later, still knackered I went to see a friend I had recently met, and she had revealed to me that she was psychic. (Despite the fact that I had seen through the lift, I had not really realised that I was psychic - and was not doing my work at this stage)
She said "you've been to the hospital and you have a man (male spirit) with you - have you been getting REALLY tired?"
Surprised, I said yes.
She said “he doesn't mean you any harm, but he is draining your energy”
and that was interesting, because I actually felt like I was on high alert, an adrenal kind of feeling, like a fishing line sounds (that zzzz) when a fish takes off with your hook, AND I felt like I almost had TWO heartbeats.
She told me he wanted me to take him to someone called 'Cameron', and actually - the small boy who lived next door to my old house was called Cameron. I had just moved.
She said “I’m not sure it’s him, but go round and when you get there, tell him (the spirit man) that if this is his Cameron, he can move on.”
I went home, 'hatched' a plan (you'll discover this is a pun), and did my housework. During that time, I discovered a remote control for my old garage door. And in my head came “Cameron, Cameron, Cameron”, the voice was very insistent. I said to it “I need to do this housework, can you wait?” and it freaked me out by saying ‘yes’.
I suddenly realised, the man who bought my other house was also named Cameron,
there were TWO Cameron’s living next door to each other!!
So I went - after I’d been and bought some Easter Eggs. I visited little Cameron, gave him the Easter Eggs, and then dropped off the garage remote at my old house next door.
I said (in my head) “Right, if this is your stop - please get off.”
And I drove away.
About half an hour later I started feeling like myself again.
The following day I was back to my fully energetic ME and realising just how much the whole experience had affected me - it was astonishing, to say the least..
If I had presented a Doctor with my symptoms, he would not have known where to look. Because they were real - I WAS feeling them - and not 'real' at the same time, and because of this experiences and others like it, I have more of an idea of what causes ‘phantom’ pains.
So next time you feel VERY tired, or not ‘like yourself’ or have unexplained pains anywhere in your body, get help. And then - get other help. Ring me – have a session, or a skype or even message session. It’s important to check medically, but also do check spiritually – so many people medicate and rack their brains for reasons why they are ‘sick’ and they are NOT sick.
I can’t tell you how many people I meet that take pain relief for pains that belong to a spirit they are carrying. You can also carry pain for another (living) person in the family, or for a friend or someone you sit next to at work - or even pass in the street.
This whole world is about energy. Everyone feels it in some way, shape or form, but most don't actually realise how to work with it and indeed what it is.
A session can make a big difference to how you feel and closing off the gate that lets them in, or spiritually setting them free can be transformational and very rewarding. Most people have no idea just how hard this presses down on their lives.
And yes - please do hear me when I say 'pressing down' because often another name for that is depression. What if you are carrying a war widow and all her sadness around with you and everything you do to your human body is not releasing her - so you believe you have depression? What if you have picked up a spirit who lost his land and wants it back? Do you think you might feel at war with yourself - and perhaps everyone else?
We are OH so much more complex than just the physical body that we call home.
If you need help understanding what's going on for you, get in touch.
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Energy expert, Deb is also a spiritual teacher, healer, writer and artist.